Self-Help Notes

First off, I’ve been doing okay in general… a little on the downish side but okay. I’ve been exhausted but that is because my thyroid has basically shut down. I’m on medication for it and it seems to be helping. I haven’t been writing because I didn’t feel that I had the energy to do [...]

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Post Christmas Post

I hope everyone had a Merry Christhanukwanzadan. This year I asked for a stress free Christmas which is what I got, my anxiety only kicked up a couple of times. I got to make cookies with my grandmother Norma, she is such a sweet lady and I love being around because she seems to always [...]

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Shotgun blast

Bipolar is not a sine wave that has peaks and valleys, it’s more like a “shotgun blast” (new term, credited to my counselor). For example you could be driving down the street and see something that reminds you of something really sad and that could trigger your depression and then all the sudden you are [...]

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River Tam

So for a while I was in the hospital/psych ward I wanted to be called “River Tam” which is a reference to Firefly which is one of my favorite sci-fi series. I was signing all my papers and craft projects with my full name followed by an “aka River”. The reason I did this is [...]

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Importance of Music

Music, especially familiar music, has helped with my therapy and makes me feel better. I was able to help other patients as well by asking that music be turned on. They saw from me as signal that if I was singing along that I was comfortable and that they could do whatever they needed to [...]

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Delusions of Grandeur

delusions of grandeur – a delusion (common in paranoia) that you are much greater and more powerful and influential than you really are (from http://www.thefreedictionary.com/) I still try to tackle this concept, it is okay to want to meet Stephen Hawking (He’s on the cover of Discovery magazine!) or Barack Obama someday? What do the [...]

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“It’s hard being a woman…”

Part of my problems I deal with on a day to day basis is: a) Too much shaking b) So COLD! The pharmacist I talked to you was like well they may both be side effects of your meds but the second one happens more frequently with women. Hence “It’s hard being a woman”. This [...]

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Today

It was a great day because I got to see my nephew and my boyfriend as well as my grandparents and sister. It snowed and I love snow. It was a good day because I got the motivation to do 20 min of Wii Fit. It was a good day because I learned to focus [...]

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“Boat Drinks”

“Life is like a mustard burp, momentarily tangy and then forgotten in the air” – Quote from Things to do in Denver… “Boat Drinks” is a phrase that comes from Things to do in Denver when You’re Dead. It means that when all is said and done in this lifetime you’ll be on a yacht [...]

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Doing better…

It snowed last night and so there is a beautiful covering of snow on the ground. Yesterday I spent the day packing up my old crappy apartment (my dad and boyfriend went to lunch at Qudoba) and then I was able to spend the afternoon with my boyfriend. He means the world to me and [...]

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