That’s why I am not posting. I don’t have any energy and that makes me depressed and that just makes me more sedentary and the cycle continues. Ugh. It’s awful. During the day all I want to do is sleep, it’s a nightmare, I wish it would get better. And I wish it were just that easy to tell myself that I am going to get up and not give in. Unless you’ve been there, you don’t understand.
Ever night as I put my thyroxine pill in the holder for the next day I think how awful it was that I didn’t do anything worthwhile today and it makes me feel worthless and fat.
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I am sorry Steppie, I wish there was something I could to to help. Love you.
hang in there sweetie… please don’t hesitate to call if you ever need to talk.
do you get any exercise? it makes a huge difference on depression if you’re able to just get out there.
want to go for a walk sometime?
hugs~love,
Hi again, This is Jana from way back in the Wilderness Kids days. Actually, Candy found you on Facebook and asked that I read your blog- because I am bipolar.
It was pretty scary in my 20′s – the severe paranoia, detachment from reality, and the troughs of wave riding. I ask for treatment and take meds for the depression and it only made the mania more EXCITING. Now I take meds for insomnia and and Lithium for the bipolar. I love being a flatliner.
Some of my friends from way back have mentioned that they like miss the old Jana but I really don’t. I don’t miss the weeping, the paranoia or the “high times” of dancing on table tops…. I really like being a flatliner. I am usually thirsty, but I love water so I take my meds and appreciate the I have control over my life.
I hope you believe that we are lucky to live in a time that has amazing medicine. I have read a few books about very famous successful people that have this, it kinda helped me. After I thought about it more I am pretty sure my dad was manic and he channeled it well, and he never had the regrets that come with the down side of bipolar,
I wanted to tell you that I always thought you were an amazing child. You have, and will do great things, and it’s OK if you don’t. If there is anything I can do to chat this out, please don’t hesitate.
I am pretty open with everyone about my condition, and it usually is because most everyone has someone they love that is similar and it’s nice to let people know that it’s quite livable, I sure hope that you think so girly! Love, Jana